This is a fantastic movie for any woman to see. I have not finished the book yet, but I felt compelled to see the movie right away as Elizabeth Gilbert speaks to some of the same issues I am dealing with right now.
Let me make a disclaimer first. I know there are a lot of opinions about this movie and book and I respect your right to your opinion. This blog post is not meant to debate the good or evil of Liz Gilbert’s choices or the quality of Julia Roberts acting. I am writing about how this movie resonated with me at this point in my life.
I also want to make another disclaimer. As a Christian, I do not agree with all of her spiritual findings. I believe, however, that God can use all things to teach us, and several of her revelations in Eastern religions resonated within me.
Let me explain. Liz felt she had lost herself, she had no idea who she was anymore. She had always ‘had’ to have a guy to complete her. Her mind was tormented with her own thoughts of who she was ‘supposed’ to be, and other people’s expectations of her. She could not find herself among all the noise.
Elizabeth Gilbert Prays in India
Those words shot like an arrow through my heart. You see, my brain is overflowing, constantly racing. Beating me up for what I should and should not be doing. For what I should or should not be feeling. If I was a ‘good’ Christian, I should be able to pray and move beyond this. I cannot stop the noise.
Now I am not going to India, or Bali anytime soon (although I WOULD like to go to Italy!) however, my sweet husband is sending me on personal retreat to Savannah, just a couple of hours away, for a week. Due to my recent meltdown and anxiety, he is joining me for the first 2 days to settle me in, and then I will be left on my own.
My plan is to spend some time with my Bible and my journal and to pray and to learn to be quiet. I want to learn to use a type of guided meditation, with scripture and music, to help me to clear MY mind. There is WAY too much of ME in there. I have to empty all that out. I feel that God is preparing me for something better in my life, my next step, but I have to learn to get out of the way first. I have to quiet the noise so that I can hear Him.
I have to empty me of me so I can be filled with Him. American Idol contestant Chris Sligh expresses so well how I feel right now in his song “Empty Me”.
I know that my writing can be a little raw and personal at times. This is part of my therapeutic process and I also hope that I can reach out to someone who may be where I am, or maybe help you catch yourself ‘before’ you sink as deep as I did. I appreciate any comments you may leave, but if you’d rather not share on the blog, click here to email me privately. If you know anyone who you feel could benefit from my blog, I’d love for you to share it with them.